Stream of Consciousness
Sail away from the safe harbor... Explore. Dream. Discover.
Get rid of your boundaries and the universe is yours.
i know i reblog this a lot but fuckin look at it
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“A story about a friend.”
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I was about to not watch this video. I’m glad I did.
swallow
nva:
love
is a dirty, dirty word
so fly
like a dirty, broken bird.
swallow, your fear
is not worth the effort
swallow, your tongue
will make no effect
swallow, your hand
needs reach for the handle
swallow. then blow out
the burning down candle.
love
is a word
so fly
like a bird.
-nv
Neuroscience: Effects of stress on brain cells offer clues to new anti-depressant drugs
Research from King’s College London reveals the detailed mechanism behind how stress hormones reduce the number of new brain cells - a process considered to be linked to depression.
The researchers identified a key protein responsible for the long-term detrimental effect of stress on cells,…
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Robert Downey Jr., on having confidence in yourself (x).
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This almost made me cry. It perfectly voiced what I have been thinking about for the last few months. This has been happening a lot lately. Whenever I hear or see something that talks about following your dreams and doing whatever you need to be happy, I feel overwhelmed. Before, I felt overwhelmed by the thought that I might be giving up on everything that I wanted to do. It was a feeling of hopelessness and surrender. But now, it is an overwhelming feeling of determination. I can go to MIT and still pursue whatever it is that I want to do, regardless of whether it ends up being film, writing, engineering, or neuroscience. I am determined to build a happy life for myself. If in 20 years I am sitting around, unsatisfied, I hope that I come back here and reread this and get my act together because goddamnit, I deserve to be happy.
I shot this, not intending to make it into a video, but some of the shots were just so beautiful that I had to do something with them. So, it has basically turned into an experiment in light and editing. It’s not perfect but if I were to try to make it better, I would feel compelled to fly back to San Francisco to reshoot it with the intention of making it into a video.
Doors and Windows
It seems as though my mid-life crisis is no longer so much of a crisis.
I thought that by committing to MIT, I would be closing the door to the film industry and I saw no windows through which I could climb to get myself there. Likewise, by committing to USC, I was under the impression that I would be forcing myself through one door with no option of exiting through other windows to go on a different path.
After meeting with the president of Paramount Studios Group and an MIT grad who works along side him, I have realized that this is entirely untrue. As it turns out, a film degree from USC does not mean that much in the real world. Though it gives you practical experience and a better chance at making connections, it is by no means a direct ticket into the industry, nor is it the only way to get there. And according to the people I met with, having a degree from a first tier school is the only thing that will really get people’s attention. The MIT grad was an engineering major but is now working for Paramount. He said that a degree in something other than film allows for so many other possibilities and ways to get access to the film industry.
At MIT I could do architecture and potentially enter the film industry as a set designer, or I could do comparative media studies and focus on video games which could help me with special effects. I could do brain and cognitive sciences and use my knowledge of how the brain perceives light, color, etc. to become the best cinematographer ever.
Now it is apparent to me that MIT may not have a direct door, but it opens thousands of windows. And just to reinforce this idea, heres a picture of one of the dorms at MIT:
… it has 5,538 windows… I think I’m covered.
Words cannot express how grateful I am to have had the opportunity to speak with the people that I have spoken to about this process. From you wonderful people on tumblr who have supported me in what I want to ultimately do, to the amazing people from Paramount that I met last week and showed me that there is more than one way to get to where I want to be. I have not committed yet, and I probably will not officially decide until the deadline, but as of right now, I think MIT, out of all the options I have right now, will be the best place for me.
Smiles 3
3/20: Made Draw My Life video :)
3/21: loled at new music in symphony
3/22: An adorable little girl was watching me from in her car and I smiled at her and she smiled back and she was so cuteeee
3/23: SoCal- got to sail with dolphins and be coach
3/24: someone said PJ would love intoanotherlife
3/25: Had fun in apah… weird? lol
3/26: FB went all marriage equality
3/27: I dont usually like to put youtube stuff on here, but Sam Pepper’s VidCon prank video made me laugh my head off
3/28: MIT gathering, accepted to USC/ Cornell!
3/29: Team dinner. Possibly starting a film project
3/30: Dyed easter eggs
3/31: Best. Easter egg. Hunt. Ever.
4/1: Day trip to LA with the latin crew. Went prom dress shopping in sketchy places, wandered around UCLA, took pictures with the walking man, got sprinkles ice cream, walked down Rodeo drive and went into the coolest art gallery ever with Dali, Rodin, Picasso, Rembrandt and other freaking amazing artists, then met Alexis at USC and danced a bit and explored a bit… yay :)
4/2: Coached sailing practice and it actually went well
4/3: Finished booking for Europe and laughed at funny things on tumblr with mele
4/4: actually had fun in chamber
4/5: it turns out that miguel wants to be a director too :)
4/6: got out of a recital!
4/7: Saw Annelle and some girl i used to play soccer with like 12 years ago at USC talk thing
4/8: I have some of the greatest friends ever. Thanks Sean and Gracie. I love you guys <3
4/9: Gave Mr. Lawrence his present… finally
4/10: Got all packed up and stuff for CPW
4/11: Got to MIT, met Kim, played glow in the dark CTF, made chocolate chip banana bread, and made a boat out of duct tape
4/12: Got butterbeer!!! met one of the rare hot guys at MIT and got a super special secret tour of the school
4/13: Liquid nitrogen ice crea, bouncy houses, velcro walls, Quidditch, hamster ball! Ran into Hailan and Jesse, swing danced, went to a frat party, talked about punctuation/ grammar for an hour, hung out in ball pit at Simmons, and an awesome time
4/14: Came home and got to sleep in my comfy bed rather than on the ground
4/15: Skipped some schoolz
4/16: voted president of Cum Laude and ate crapes for the first time
4/17: Watched College starring Drake Bell… <3 Drake Bell
4/18: A day in LA- talked to Randy and have a better idea about college now & got juice and sprinkles ice cream
4/19: Left for PCCs, flight delayed for three hours
4/20: Had a war and made a fort with Olivia, Sean, and Cole
4/21: Sooooooo much tinder… Amazing wind and good last three races. Climbed a mountain, got ice cream, and almost got stuck at the air port
4/22: ate a lot of chocolate
